Standards are high, expectation is low:.

The more you specialize, the more responsability you'll probably get. In my case, I like programming, which means that I'm more and more responsible of getting the latest code to customers, which in reality means, trying not to screw everything up :).

I try to test as most as I can (I even have people helping me fulltime to find errors), but truth be told, it'll never be enough. Everytime I deploy, there's a chance I'll mess everything up. I'd like to tell you that's just a flaw in my current organization, but no, software industry is broken, somewhere out there, no matter how big/mature your company is, there's someone like me, fearing deploying the latest code to production  is going to break something out there (yes, even FAANG experience this). We have contingency plans, but that doesn't mean this is OK, or maybe it is, at this point I don't really know :)

How many sides to a story can there be when you saw it with your own eyes?
I got all my thoughts out on records y'all won't ever hear.

Will we recognize old friends?:.

What's one of the hardest things for me to do...know when to move on.

It took me a while, but now I know that it's a good thing that the more you grow, the more you appreciate someone else's opinion (if nothing else, you've learnt you're not so reliable after all). The trick then becomes how to be surrounded by people whose opinion matters.

Now that I think about it, maybe I should really be moving on...

When this cycle ends,
Will it start again?.

And what have I got?:.

Some people say I should change my argumentation strategy, until they see its results. Others seek advice, until that advice is against their beliefs; some others believe we shouldn't contradict others, because...reasons; some others think they know better because...of some other reasons (yeah, right :)...what can I say to all of them?!:.

Believe in yourself, don't seek any one else's approval!!:.


P.D. Lupita :):.

I've got my freedom:.

Finally a new decade, good news for everyone, even if it only makes you think about what you were thinking 10 years ago. Thankfully, I have this blog to remind me: https://blog.jccastrejon.com/2009/ (spoiler alert, I wanted recognition...so 20's).

What's the difference now?. Well, I know now that recognition comes with a price (and you must ask yourself, are you really being recognized, or are you just being a tool for someone else's recognition).

So, what am I really looking for the next years?. Simply put, the rebellion of thinking!!.

P.D. El post que más retrata mi década anterior: https://blog.jccastrejon.com/2009/12/que-hay-que-regresar.html

Cuántas vidas quedan?

Durante mucho tiempo, llegado el fin de año, mi familia cercana ha hecho reflexiones sobre aquello que hemos aprendido y lo que deseamos para el futuro. Este último año tenía toda la intención de contarles sobre cómo he logrado iluminarme, pero probablemente esa palabra hubiera sido demasiado controversial.

Pero bueno, el caso es que si tuviera que definir este año con una palabra sería precisamente esa: iluminación. Y lo interesante es que a veces uno piensa que la iluminación pertenece a un momento definitivo, a algo que uno busca por años, con maestros, gurús...obtenido después de grandes sacrificios!. Y no, la verdad es que uno puede alcanzarla en cosas aparentemente tan mundanas como un viaje a la tiendita de la esquina o durante un viaje en Uber :)

Por momentos lo olvido, pero la vida me recuerda por n-ésima vez que debo dejar de buscar un momento en particular y en cambio disfrutar de los pequeños momentos y, en particular este año, que no deje de dudar!!:.

Nada se queda,
todo se secará.

Volvemos a empezar de cero, venga:.

Whenever you feel comfortable, you're just being lazy:.
Challenge yourself, or perish!!:.


Si sigues ahí,
corre.

Creí cuando dijeron que el diablo se escondía, husmeando en las esquinas de la habitación:.

Some people say I troll....others say I always go wherever the hype is not going; still, some people say I don't really have an opinion...if only they knew I only guide my opinions by classical music, or as some might say: whatever people say I am, that's what I'm not!!:.

Simple concept, right?. Try to apply it with your company's director and then let me know how that went. In the meantime, I'll still look straight at the sun!!:.

Pensé que tu sonrisa era inagotable, como el agua,

hasta que casi se fue.